in the Lord's wisdom (and timing)

I've been realizing how influential the Lord is in educating my desires. As a simple but clear example, when I first went to college and began dating, I didn't really want to stay home and raise a family when I got married. I probably would have done it, but I would have been very resistant and it would have been really hard on both me and my husband. But I didn't get married then. The more education I've gotten, the more I want to stay at home when I have children. However, even until recently, I have had a hard time with the counsel that couples should have children soon after they marry. I wasn't sure I wanted that counsel or that it applied to me. However, I didn't get married then and I didn't have children. In the last few years, my desires have changed so that when I get married I want to have children as soon as is reasonable and I want to stay at home and raise my children. What a difference a few years of having my desires educated has made! I appreciate that the Lord has worked with me and allowed me the time it's taken to get me in line with His counsel. It's been much easier this way than to be pushed into the choice by necessity. I think there's a few lessons on agency and teaching involved here.