relaxing my guard

Last night I talked with Robert and reviewed the situation at work with him. It seems that I've been talking about the situation a lot, and I've realized that I haven't been completely forgiving, and I think that's keeping me from progressing. However, that's a post for another day. When I was talking with Robert, I realized that I don't need to worry about making the situation worse. I will continue doing everything I can to improve the atmosphere at work, but I don't need to walk around on eggshells. Things have been much worse, and if they get bad again, I'll survive. But in the meantime, I can enjoy how good things relatively are. I can find joy in the journey right now. And I don't need to use anger or suspicion to protect myself - I don't need to be protected, because it's ok if I get hurt or if things suddenly take a downward turn.